I know what men are after. It took me 24 years to figure it out, but I finally know what men are after. My mother's words haunted me throughout my adolescence.
"Watch out for them, they are only after one thing."
I was sure she meant my body. Now I know.That is not all they want. Even though their primary interest finds sanctuary between my legs, they are not fully satisfied unless they have garnished my spirit as well.
After sex men cannot disappear into the night without taking a spirit along with them. They are not satisfied by sex alone. They are only satisfied after they have relished in the gifts of womanhood and made off with a warmth they are incapable of creating for themselves.
Perhaps my hurt feelings are my fault. Maybe I should try to detach my feelings from the act of sex. I'm laughing as I write this. I am no man. I am a woman. I am passionate, I am sensitive, I am doomed.
I cannot remove my heart from the act of joining my body with another. And, I cannot bear to lose another piece of my spirit. I guess to protect myself, I will have to remove myself from the act completely.
NO MORE SEX! I guess that means no more love as well. Men do not believe in love without sex, only in sex without love.